Numinous Possibilities

In the silence of the stillness I see the earth and
sky interconnect. Thick roots intertwined and a miraculous
circuitry runs through the black earth, and rocks.
Another neuro-network anchoring a gigantic grey oak trunk.

Solar bound this tree's huge branches reach in vast community of
organic arms into the cosmos.  These branches lifted skyward spinning
an amazing web of connection similar to their sister’s roots system below. 

Tiny green leaf buds are nurtured by trillions of rays of star shine.
Brilliant and illuminating bands of white, yellow, orange and red
traveling millions of years greeted these future leaves.

Lucidly I observed that this tree is us. Carbon, oxygen, hydrogen and
other nutrients electrified this cellular organism by a mysterious
particles wave. Our amazing water bodies are being purified by these
celestial ultra violet lights influencing every atom here.

The transmutation of these astral lights forms a union of opposites
grounding the heavens with our earth; rooting the soil with water and
air charged by this extraordinary solarized phenomenon.

Out of darkness chaos roots recycle new leaf life. A numinous one-ness
is born beyond concepts. Where the sea meets the land or air touches
the water. The mystery of this whole, where a moment becomes a trillion
years. A rare synchronous and numinous events celebrate the unification
 of our inner and outer worlds.

Rays cycle- circulating the elements of all known things, simultaneously
dancing light
and darkness in unimaginable ways.

Celebrating My Divergent Micro-Being

When I first visited Sparky, my therapist, I had diagnosed myself with acedia, historically “the bane of solitaries” (Hermitary.com), since my spiritual apathy was equaled only by my existential angst.  His insights became precious touchstones for me in a sometimes emotionally perilous, moment-to-moment existence.  How can I go forth amidst the overwhelming information of loss, despair, ignorance, and destructive injustices that characterize world affairs?  My cynical mind-set toward our doomed society was imprisoning me in the lethargy of a victim mentality.

Since Sparky is a divergent thinker like myself, he enabled me to see and deal with my life on a micro level.  To begin with, I was unaware that I was a “divergent thinker”, attempting to fit into a convergent, deductive thinking, mind-set.  The dominant process here is to follow logical steps in order to arrive at one solution.  My free-flowing, divergent mind is spontaneous, creative, and non-linear.  I emerge with unexpected interconnections.  My thinking is more contemplative, persistent, non-conforming, and inspired by my curiosity.

Attempting to repair damage from the macro convergent perspective creates gridlock.  For example, if I attempt to assess what can be done about government waste, I am met with the political reality, known as “use it or lose it”, a stance that recognizes that maximum spending today increases the expectation of future dollars coming our way.  Emotionally, my circuit breakers shut off and I become estranged.  However, if I just focus on my own individual ability to “use what I have and prosper”, I am free to use less, to respect my air, energy, water, and land.  And I personally benefit.

This practice of Micro-Being allows me to best exercise my talents for cherishing and appreciating life’s gifts instead of being distracted by my anxieties, this macro circle of concern.  It requires me not to ignore or deny what is going on in the larger world, but rather wisely to filter the constant barrage of negative news.  The key is to let go of what I have no power over and to act with a pure heart.  Now I may humbly concentrate on deeds that make a positive contribution.

My practice of Micro-Being involves three remembrances:

     *Be kind and generous to all things, especially myself.

     *Honestly and humbly evaluate what is in front of me right here and now.

     *Once distracted, forgive myself and return to the creativity of my divergent Micro-Being.

 

My three prayers:

      *May my choices honor and enrich my micro world and well-being.

      *May I be blessed with a Micro-Being Positive Feedback Loop.

      *May my choices benefit the macro world, lighten it, and never prey upon it.

I am not the predator or the prey, just a kind and wise Micro-Being!

The Ethics of Truly Being

Living well for me is about treating people, places and things with care, and profound respect.  When I humbly remember not to bring harm to these things, I give myself an amazing gift of higher self-care.  My moral awareness is constantly observing my decisions and how they affect my world. When I experience the consequences of my actions, I can reflect upon what was skillful and how it brought benefits to the the things I value.  The key is an honest and open assessment on how well I am living by my core beliefs.  
 

Over the years I have been refining the way I live according to this life-intention to honor what matters deep in my heart.  It is a work in progress and I approach it with humility.  Such evaluation allows me to cultivate what I value most.  Wise moral development is paramount to my very well-being.

At any given moment I can seek alignment with more a wholesome way of being....  Can I honor a kind, humble and observant lifestyle with conscientious deeds and words?  Or do I choose to become self-absorbed and go forth with false values?

Specific people in my life have been my champions and I have emulated them over the years.   Generous, attentive, considerate, their examples have been powerful and inspired me to greater self-actualization.  However, on my journey there have been many detours and lessons reminding me to keep on course.   Remembering my difficult times has allowed me to review whatever does not best serve me.
  

One intention I attempt to live by is showing reverence to all things.  Whether it be a resource or a person, or even a place, I try to appreciate it for what it is.  I try to meet people where they are, without judgement.  And the same for myself.  I believe that what you plant, you harvest. In some mysterious way, this respectful perspective brings me what I call “happy returns.”  I have rituals to express symbolically my compassion for the world, and they help me discover what is kind and caring in every situation that arises.

When I forget to be in this mindset, I find my life losing meaning and I become emotionally diverted.  My ethical synthesis is about resolving what is profoundly true for me.  Listening in stillness, I contemplate what matters deep in my soul.  Also I am learning to focus on my actions: I can only demonstrate through my own deeds.  With each choice, I am responsible for creating heaven or hell for every cell of my being.

I am careful regarding language, since there are many definitions and concepts to do with such words as “moral” and “ethics.”  Being ethical for me is really a form of counting my blessings.  The things I treasure, in return, bring treasure to me.  Whether I am reading, listening and/or contemplating, I try to nourish my gratitude... love, be loved, and show self-care that expands into a sense of service to all the things that matter.  Well-being and ethical being are one and the same.

Star Dust Abounds

Enlighten across the cosmic darkness

May One show merciful kindness

The merging of dark light in peace

Polar forces allowing a harmony to release

Dense clouds of depression appear

Birthing an inner courage overcoming fear

Breaking free to a wiser choice

In the shadows of star shine rejoice

Blessed new born so pure

A devoted well-being and cure

Solar medicine for spiritual illness

Healing by the silence of stillness

Awe and other heavenly assistance

Reducing pain and lessening resistance

Transmuting space from horrific fright

Releasing All with luminous light

All things enter this universal mix

Cosmic chaos, a mysterious fix

Interconnected by a galactic bust

Once again collective star dust

REawaken

The prefix of most words with Re transforms my world.  This prefix refreshes my perspective.   I find greater wonders when I rewire my brain.  Simply when I change my outlook when I remember and exercise renewed awareness.  With this widening circle of consciousness I reclaim greater prosperity in my life.  Changing my way I reference or refer to things reenhances my entire well-being.  Reshifting my mind and I reopen the doors to a fresh fantastic new adventure.

Reforming my emotional baggage such as worry, anxiety and other fear based feelings gets me to relearn to see the positive from the negative.  I can observe what is going on instead adding my own drama to my immediate reality.

First I need to recognize I have a choice to reawaken.  What lens do I wish to see things.  My old story which is like I am looking through a dirty window.  When I open to new experience then I activate my well being.   Years ago I shared with a therapist my feelings of anxious energy and how I felt like a buzzing fluorescent light bulb.  It has taken me many years to rediscover this feeling is my life force or chi energy. 

The difference is how I choose to perceive and look at my current circumstances Is filled with Velcro for the bad and Teflon for the good or vice versa? I can reformat my brain just as I can take the remote and change the T.V. channel. 

When I reawaken I enjoy greater freedom.  Fully arriving or reexperience  I can rejoice at whatever arises whether it is a blessing, or a curse.  Upon this reexamination I may find greater balance from these events.  I also can honestly reconsider how I feel, when I respond versus when I react.   

I can respond by pausing and reflect the cause and effect of what I do.  When a react I fell less like an actor or more like I am mindlessly a reactor.  Reawakening to face the consequences of reacting I fell less present in my reactions.  Responding I feel more responsible and thus more aware and liberated by my actions.

We live in times filled with escalating anxiety and worry.  However, I can renew my energy and reclaim new Chi. When I reframe my thoughts with the power of focusing on my specific intentions I reclaim this loss Chi.   Releasing myself from many of my negative mind-sets I let go of much darkness.  Now I can relight my ultimate potential with less stress and more well-being. The magic of reawakening with Re stimulates new possibility and potential.

Rejoy

When I reconnect to the mystical inter-relationships that cause all things in this world to work together, I experience what I call Rejoy!  The return to profound joy.

How is it that I ever separated myself from this source and hub of connectedness?  Surely, it must be my personal issues, my self-consuming concepts, mental conditioning, and habits, that trap me in fears and despair.  But then some of my silliest selfish wants will actually overstep themselves and remind me to let go and expand my heart.  With remembering…  putting it together again, comes the rebirth… the Rejoy!

I can get there by philosophical, cognitive, remembering of what I know about the unifying spider web that holds together all things created by earth, air, water, energy, and other sources.  These elements, all finite and ultimately transient, provide life for me and show me the sacredness of all things.  Networks of ecosystems exchange birth, death, and decay as energy material constantly being recycled.  I find liberation in this finite oneness.

Another way to get there is by observing nature.  When I look up to the star-filled night sky, this experience unites me with creation beyond what words may describe.  I touch a place without causes or conditions, an unlimited treasure of joy and grace.   My heart expands with greater loving-friendliness.  Such awakened oneness is not about ideas and beliefs, it simply generates a deep trust in the greater self, my divine nature.  Then my miserable issues dissolve like a cloud in the sky.  I deeply listen and become one through the transformative direct experience I call Rejoy!

A Virtuous Legacy

I am really inspired by the wonderful legacy that previous generations worked so hard to leave for us. In the spirit of making this world a better place, I want to continue this virtue by passing on to the future the gifts that have blessed me.

 

With the New Year coming, I am filled with amazing gratitude for things so simple yet fantastic, for example, the 3 billion beats of our heart that an average life celebrates. The message I want to gift to the next generations is a sense of wonder, awe and possibility. Once I was preparing to get a financial license to be of greater service. Then I had a revelation that it was Life Assurance, not life insurance, that I wanted to sell! I aspire to foster optimism and new ingenuity for the prospect of making the best of whatever life offers in the future. I want to show how peace and harmony always bring a sense of coming home.

 

Each letter of the word HOME helps me remember some of life's blessings that I want pass on.

 

Humility for knowing that I truly do not know. In my  quest for finding answers to life's mystery, I simply gather more and more questions.

 

Openness to the possibility of seeing something in a truly new way; beyond what I always thought, and new to the core of my heart.

 

Magic shows up everywhere when I pay attention with deep appreciation to the ordinary. And the simple intention to be of benefit or service allows magic to happen. 

 

Enthusiasm for all things.  Find the water in the desert. Find what is juicy beneath the dry and worn out.  This is where I enrich my well-being and expand to new frontier of awareness. Cherish all things and show reverence of even the difficult dark stuff. Being gentle with myself is my quest and lifelong challenge

After I leave this world to join the ancestors, may my legacy be the flight of a hawk, not a bulldozer building a parking lot. May I show thanks for the divine guidance that has come from my ancestors: to bestow kind and selfless acts. May this compassion and empathy expand and ripple outward just as a stone does when it is thrown in a still pond, spreading joy and well-being.

 

The key legacy is that I live in greater harmony, to focus on greater service. Have I been humble and generous?  Have I been open to new adventure and experience?  Have I shared my magic with all things?  And finally how has my enthusiasm created new ripples to inspire and benefit others? This quest best leads me home:  where my heart gently beats to celebrate my sacred time on this earth.

 

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched.  They must be felt with the heart.  - Helen Keller